I'm quite busy, and I think I have literally zero people who read this, excepting myself, when I do an editing pass. So; a short post.
I'm working on my powers of focus. My world is distracting. I can settle some of the chaos down, most of the time, but I move, I travel, stuff happens. I've decided that, when I cannot have a clean and supportive environment, it's not something to get frustrated about, it is a learning opportunity: how focused can I be in a distracting environment.
Also, I'm working on "eating that frog" or, in Phil Stutz's parlance, practicing reversal of desire. I want to make a habit of going directly into the things that make me uncomfortable, and doing them. Over and over, with little time in between bemoaning my failures. Massive, well directed action. Not avoiding unpleasant or scary things that need to be done.
Also, I am working on prioritization: really, this is what is meant by time management, because time is an inflexible quantity. What we can do is choose what we use that time for. There are less important things, and more important things. Why not do the most important thing, all the time. Sometimes that is rest. But rest should be of a high quality. Deeply restful, and with positive qualities to it.
In addition to that, I'm realizing that it's not just about doing the most important things, it's about doing them in the right amount of time. It is easy to take too long on them, and I need to find a way to give them enough time, but not too much time. I can get precious with things, and it does not benefit me or them at all. Much better to do and learn and do some more over and over, than to do one thing and try to make it perfect. That is a slower learning curve. It's the 80-20 rule once again. A certain amount of time is valuable, and more than that becomes wasteful, and if I'm honest with myself, and able to step back and be objective, I can usually where that point is, approximately.
I am still failing all the time with all of these, but my approach is changing. I am getting much less discouraged by my failures. I'm getting better at having a bad day, and then just bouncing back, and trying to make the next day better, learning from my mistakes. It is incredibly refreshing. Oh how I wish I had known to do this so long ago. All these years wasted, approaching things in such an inefficient and depressing way.
Ah well. Once again, I must simply let go of the past and begin again, from right now.
